My Journal

So last summer I changed a little bit, more physically then anything, but still change nonetheless. I lost a lot of weight and grew my hair out. I also figured out my charisma and built a lot of self confidence. I would say I matured a little bit, and started to buckle down on planning for my future.

This summer I want to build on my future, and have a greater understanding of myself. I'm going to finish my language credits online, improve my algebra grade, and take next years English class. If I can finish the 3 classes before brake is over, I'll try to finish some more courses and accumulate more credits. I also want to drive more. My best friend is moving to Winter Park, so I'll probably practice driving more to go see her.

As for my greater understanding, I want to take only what I can describe as a mental trip. Meditation is key for this. I want to explore different aspects of who I am. We are going to Chicago I believe over break, so I think I'll embark on my journey then. It may sound strange, but it all makes sense to me man.

I also plan on spending time with my friends. A lot of which live in Celebration and BVL. I plan on spending more time with them, and doing crazy stuff.

I don't plan on too drastic of a change, but to try to uncover somethings about myself that I might not be aware of.

who did you last shoot a dirty look at?
Alee for saying something stupid

what DVD is in your DVD player?
Flight of the conchords

what was the last thing you said?
outloud?
Nothing I can recall

have you ever had a garage sale?
Yes

if you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive?
I'd know what to do. I'm pretty prepared for anything. Robots, Zombies, you name it.

what color is your ipod?
Black

whats your favorite food?
Probably something hot and spicy

whats for dinner tonight?
hopefully nothing I am so full

what is the last drink you drank?
Water a few moments ago

last time you were sick?
A while ago

how short is your hair?
It's just right

are you happy right now?
generally yes very much

do you drink beer?
not anymore as much

whats something fun you did today?
I drove!



what are you listening to right now?
When the brake man comes my way~Bright Eyes

whats your birthday?
March 25

whats the area code for your cell phone?
407

where did you buy the shirt your wearing now?
kohels I think

what are you going to do after this?
Finish reading my book

what is something you need to go shopping for?
new boxers

do you like pickles?
SOMETIMES

do you have any tan lines?
No

Are you in love?
:) Yes

I'll just keep here strumming and feeling very happy.

There are different ways we can teach people, and some prove more effective then others. Some like to teach with example, and this can be either negative or positive. Some people are good to look up to, and some show us what not to become. Really we all have some sort of idol we look up to. Something that molds and helps shape our decisions.

As for me, I take on different qualities from different people I look up to. Some people have a greater impression on me then others. My mentor has helped me in the past when I needed help, and I've been there for her recently too. She's changed though, and has been through a lot. Eventually it just breaks in some people, and the strength I admired seems to have grown cynical and weak.


I don't ask for help often, and typically have good control of my problems. If I ever need it though, it's comforting to know I have friends to back me up.

I often talk with people who obviously aren't comfortable with different aspects of them selfs. People usually aren't comfortable with things regarding there appearance or sexuality. I find comedy to be the best tool to help someone get comfy with them selfs. When you can laugh or find humor in something, you are typically comfortable with it. Laughing at things that are sometimes tragic instead of funny helps us cope with them. For instance, death can be funny even though death is something serious. It helps us get familiar with it, and relate it to something that we share universally, laughter. You need to be able to joke with yourself, even tease yourself at times. You need to be able to joke with others, and take a joke even if it's a little mean. This is an essential tool in social interaction. People who can't take a joke, or fail to have a good sense of humor, have a hard time fitting in.


I realize not everyone is born quick and witty, and for them i recommend watching comedy central, or late night personalities. Practice your charisma, and get comfortable with yourself. This will build confidence, and you'll be well on your way!

It's funny how the little things can effect so much. It just takes the slightests thing to snowball and change our perception, feelings, or just overall well being.

I guess when things seem to be snowballing down, you just have to change your pespective. You can tend to your physical needs first. Eat, Shower, and then Sleep is a good place to start. Then you can change your way of thinking and how you feel.  Eventually things will get better I promise this to you. Once you change your pespective, the picture we paint will change. If it's just an illusion, or the picture takes a different form, it's better then being at the bottom of everything.

I haven't written in a few days, and I swear I'll keep better care of this journal. It's like a baby, and I can't neglect it any longer!

Well, on Friday I went to Cassadaga to have a psychic tell my future. I believe psychics, ghosts,  and superstitions and things of that sort, so of course this was really fun for me. My psychic was a heavier women that seemed like the stereotypical "look into my magic ball" gypse you would see at a fair nearest you.

She told me I'm going to marry when I'm 20 or 21, and I'm going to be a doctor. I'm going to be a specialist though, and I want to be a psychiatrist so this all works out. She said I have a beautiful mind, but I'm not doing in well in an area of my studys. She said it's not my fault, it's my teachers fault but she doesn't know it. Like a miscommunication.  She said everything will be alright in the long run even if it might not seem that way at first.


AND THEN LATER THAT DAY Katelynn came over and we played The Sims. We then went to a restaurant  and talked for a few hours. We ate nothing and drank nothing. Then we complained that it wasn't raining. It was depressing but it works for us. We then went to movie gallery and I let her pick out a movie for us to watch. We rented white noise 2. Probably the most horrible movie ever made, but we made it entertaining. It takes some kind of chemistry and connection to be able to make such a piss poor movie, and terrible non-existant dinner fun. Keep in mind tonight is the 1 week of us meeting. That says a lot.

Feburary was never a good month for me especially in the realm of relationships. Last Feburary I almost dated Rachel, and I dated Jennie. Mine and Jennie's relationship was good for a while, but looking back it did ruin our friendship.


March however is always kind to me in every aspect of my life. With relationships, school, health. Last year in March I started working out and lost a lot of weight. This March I got to meet Katlynn who is awesome btw.

My life is doing alright, and it's all thanks to March.

Seems pretty cool
So far I've only read sims stories and added a psychology group
I should have my own stories up here eventually